As I turn 50 tomorrow, there is something within me that stays constant and is untouched by the changes that happen in life. It is ever present in every circumstance, wave, change...
This continuous eternal presence continues to beckon me towards discovering Truth. That no matter what direction I move towards....whatever choices I make....whichever path I decide to walk on....there is a silent, ever present awareness watching me through all of my expressions and creation and meanderings.
I have to admit, I spend WAY too much time trying to figure out how to be "successful". As the world tempts me into thinking that material success brings comfort and happiness, I already know too much. The world which wants us to strive towards "security" and building up assets and maintain youth and beauty - I know that the the Divine laughs at such preposterous propositions. The joke is on us if we choose to believe this.
Having spent the last 3 years online, "trying" to crack the code to building a successful online healing business - hiring coaches, taking programs, signing up for masterclasses and courses. Reading countless emails and surveying the landscape of social media - I have come to a conclusion that it is ALL an illusion. All of it.
Don't get me wrong - nothing wrong with success - material wealth is a blessing of the divine. This isn't about right or wrong. It's just that wealth or "success" NOT the end game, nor is it the goal.
Material wealth and success is just a by-product of what shows up for you as a soul to experience your next level of growth. It is only a tiny tiny sliver of possible human experience - and it depends on who is defining it.
And so if success is defined merely as "growth" then that means that sometimes the next level of soul growth means letting it all go and burning it down to the ground.
Sometimes it means changing career, entering a new relationship, ending a marriage, mourning the loss of a loved one. Or maybe even becoming homeless.
The Matrix wants to trick you into believing that if A then B. then C. Follow this route and program, follow these rules and strategies, and you'll have a fulfilled life.
In truth, that is NOT what the soul yearns to experience. The soul yearns to experience, mystery, revelations, expansion, new experiences. It requires at times building up and other times tearing down. How many times do we have to witness the rich end up with so much misery in life before we finally realize that it really is an illusion?
I believe the soul comes down to incarnate in the human body, to not only live by nature's principles of cycles and seasons, but to also experience that which is deemed as miracles which lies beyond nature's principles. The soul can dance within time and outside of time. It is organic in it's unfolding and uses the divinely designed masterpiece of technology called the human body to be able to taste, touch, smell, hear, move, feel love, grief, pain, pleasure....all of it. It brings the spark of God down into the flesh - moving into and out of form.
It it true misery for the soul when all we aim to experience are the highs of life - the pleasure, happiness, the joy. The soul is not limited to those things and so when we spend every minute of everyday pursuing pleasure and resisting the inevitability of pain, we are cutting ourselves off from the fullness of life. We become numb and less alive.
In truth the soul is here to discover Truth. To unburden itself from all that is false. Each soul has it's own unique journey and truly, the Divine is in control. The Divine is the guiding force whose aim is to lift the and expand the soul into ever greater expressions of Love.
To judge another soul's journey is to judge oneself. It is to put a limit on the expression of the Divine which is limitless. All souls are on the path back to the One. For some, the path is fame, riches, and excess. For others it is the simple quiet life. For others, perhaps a path of darkness.
So for me, in my vision for this life as Tania...the goal is to to help others recognize and see who they truly are. To see that within them lies their own wisdom and power to create. That by deeply listening to the heart, attuning to the soul's whispers, that they can regain their footing on the path that is their's to walk - towards a life of fulfillment.
Fulfillment to be isn't just about having everything figured out, or even about being happy every moment of every day. Fulfillment is about being able to fully experience life - to cry when one is moved by something that is touching, to feel the deep pain of loss through grief, to journey through dark nights of the soul to come out the other side filled with light and deeper wisdom, to be able to belly laugh at the absurdities of life and being human.
The soul desires to experience the exquisitely alive life - to be able to fully feel the beauty of a sunset, the rapture of a storm, to feel despair when darkness descends and experience the returning of the light.
Life is not a straight line. The soul's journey cannot be quantified. Nor is there a time limit.
If your deepest desire is to grow and expand as a soul, as cliche as that sounds, then I dare your to be courageous enough to feel everything. To make choices that don't always look like "success" in the eyes of the Old Paradigm. I invite you to say what you hold back from saying. To love who you want to love. And to fall down when the weight is too unbearable. To dare to not be strong all the time. To allow the Truth of who you are play hide and seek.
Because I believe, that when you surrender to all of it, to the fullness of life, you'll discover and unmoving, unwavering presence of Love throughout all of it (which is the real YOU) - a constant river that is carrying your most precious asset - your soul - through this incredibly audacious journey of a human life. That in it of itself is beyond incredible.
When the world appears ridiculous and doesn't make any sense, perhaps it is an invitation be ridiculous enough to fall out of line, make a mess, and laugh at everything that the rest of the world takes far too seriously.
It is a Divine Comedy after all.
Cheers, Tania
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